Mary: I didn't miss my DM so much yesterday, as I missed my stepfather. It was the anniversary of his birthday, yesterday.
Also, I was doing my filing and he was my "filing buddy"! He used to help me set up my files and, in fact, one of the files I worked on yesterday HAD been started for me by him (his handwriting was on the front of the file). It was he who mentored me as to how files should be maintained (he'd write the date received on every piece of correspondence, the date/amt/check#, etc. on every bill statement, note dates & actions taken on the front of the file folders, etc., etc., etc.)
It seemed to me that filing was a good thing to do on his birthday, and I felt his presence near me all the time. There was a note he had written on the back of the file he had started for me and it was addressed to me - he had written his pet name for me and then, "Very, very good!" I took that as a message that he approved of my filing!
BL: Thank you for your kind words.
Yes, I was feeling overwhelmed! Venting here helped, because I had all you ladies encouraging me. Now, the filing backlog has been cleared, the taxes are done, several other smaller tasks have been crossed off, and I am feeling much better, more able to cope! Thank you.