Carol: ((((HUGS)))) I am so sorry to hear the latest turn of events. But please do take care of yourself as you need to be there for your DD.

Oh Carol I was so sad to read about how R's health has deteriorated so quickly. I am so glad you and DD were able to speak to a counsellor about everything that has happened. I will pray for you all and I hope the panic attacks cease soon. Take care and (((HUGS))).

Simplicity - Thank you like you say some people are just determined to be negative. I try not to take it personally, but some days it is hard. I hear you on the visiting because you feel obligated too. Things are improving with a little distance. Thank you for your prayers and I will be praying for you while you undergo your treatment in the coming weeks. Take it easy and rest as much as you can.

Nothing to report on goals for me. I am just checking in and encouraging my fellow goners along just as they do with me. Have a good Sunday all!

Carol - I'm so sorry your life has become so dramatic. I think it was helpful to find out R had undiagnosed diabetes which caused the stroke. Otherwise you might be forever wondering what struck him. All the best to you and DD during these terrible days.

Been laying around today. Meds kicking in and hopefully the pain will be gone!

Bubblegum:
Just teasing about the painting. I don't paint, as I don't do well with painting....I hope your friend appreciates your time and talent!

FAMILY
*Make sure I visit my dad and grandad once a week - first week done
*Cut my contact down with my mum to a weekly visit and phone calls three times a week (not daily), investigate more therapy/support on how to deal with her - work in progress
*The 12th would of been my nans birthday so we will be marking the day in some way (not decided how yet)
*19th Muckerteers meeting (family meeting)

PERSONAL
*Read the books that are due back at the library on the 9th
*Work at healthy eating -work in progress first week has been better, but some slip ups
*Walk for half an hour at least three times a week - first week done

HOME/GARDEN
*Scan the old photos and put them on the computer
*Dig vegetable garden
*Lay some slabs in the front garden
*Move some of the gravel from the front garden to the back
*paint garden wall

Thank you to everyone!

R passed away this morning at 6:45 a.m. When his brothers called to tell me, I told them that I already knew. At just about that same time, an amazing sense of something came over me, even though I was 50 miles away from him physically. I don't know exactly what to call it, not exactly a peace or a calmness, just a knowing that he was no longer suffering here in his body and that he was free from the evil demons that at times consumed his life and came out as abuse towards those that he loved and loved him.

I was the last one that he made any type of communication with when he let go of my hand that final time when I told him that I loved him. I'm so glad that DD and I got the chance to say goodbye to him while he knew that it was us.

I will cherish the good memories that I have from the past 10 years that I spent with him, as there were many.

I'm pretty exhausted now, but I will begin anew with my goal of "Reclaiming My Life" in a few days, only with a totally different perspective.

Carol, My deepest sympathies.

Carol, accept our deepest sympathies, words are inadequate at such a sad time.

Carol, (((((((HUGS))))))

Carol:
I cannot find words to say how sorry I am, but you were able to say goodbye and release him. (((((HUGS))))) and prayers, take one day at a time honey.