Thank you to everyone!
R passed away this morning at 6:45 a.m. When his brothers called to tell me, I told them that I already knew. At just about that same time, an amazing sense of something came over me, even though I was 50 miles away from him physically. I don't know exactly what to call it, not exactly a peace or a calmness, just a knowing that he was no longer suffering here in his body and that he was free from the evil demons that at times consumed his life and came out as abuse towards those that he loved and loved him.
I was the last one that he made any type of communication with when he let go of my hand that final time when I told him that I loved him. I'm so glad that DD and I got the chance to say goodbye to him while he knew that it was us.
I will cherish the good memories that I have from the past 10 years that I spent with him, as there were many.
I'm pretty exhausted now, but I will begin anew with my goal of "Reclaiming My Life" in a few days, only with a totally different perspective.